.Wednesday, February 13, 2008 ' 2:09 AM Y
went to the hospital earlier on..
my heart,
broke into pieces
when i entered the ward where my grandpa is..
i could feel his pains,
his desire to talk, to walk, etc..
however..
at that moment, i do not know what to say to him..
i just stood there quietly, at the front of his bed..
for approximately 10seconds?
and he cried..
i was lost..
totally lost..
walked out of the ward immediately..
as my tears were already on the verge of dropping..
i don't want to cry infront of him..
who knows..
my aunt and uncles came out too..
thus, i gotta put on a brave front and held back my tears,
all the way until....
this cousin of mine came and lectured me..
telling me how i could treat my mum better, etc.
and, knowing my grandpa cried again when my two cousins called him at his bedside..
i couldn't hold it any longer..
my tears, rolled down my cheeks..
just liked two taps..
i realised and also, regret..
for not spending enough time with him and to do my part as a grand-daughter..
i should have all my Saturdays free so as to visit him and grandma instead of working..
*私、最低ですね*
Hope everything would be fine within these few days as it's the most critical period..
and of course, i hope he would get well soon!
*His birthday party was supposed to be held next week..
But it was cancelled now..
and I guess, his wish for his birthday is to get well soon too..*
Pray that my hope, my familys' hope and his wish would be fulfilled!
ahh!
I wonder how is my grandma too..
hope she's doing fine..
well, from today onwards..
I will always remember this sentence,
which my uncle reminded me again and again earlier on..
"Blood is thicker than Water!"
